Your turnin me off

Its aggravating to only get phone calls, text messages, or numbers over some I want to fuck you type shit… It makes me wonder if that’s all guys seem to see in. I thank God for the body that I have, but can we get past that?I Cannot even have a descent conversation without talking about sex. What about getting to know someone? Whatever happened to developing a friendship,dating, or saving sex for marriage? Has that all completely been thrown out the window? I’m not a virgin but at the same time I’m not about sex when I meet someone. I don’t think about what the guy would be like in bed when I meet someone. I want to get to know the person and see where there head is. I hear so many times that people don’t use protection nowadays. Give me an STD I promise it won’t be anything nice. I am the last person you want to be around when I get mad.

From time to time people will say to me how beautiful I am, I get asked why I am single, how “wonderful” of a person I am, and how I have a lot to offer a guy and not to settle… with all that being said, where are the guys that have something to offer other than there dicks? I am single because the people I have come across we aren’t on the same page as far as what we want from each other... God damn can we get it together?

-Mcgee

An Update

So here my update and who and what stands as of now...

Most of the time when I write it's to vent and im in the moment... all that I say cannot be taken for face value because sometimes my feelings change... sometimes too quickly... In any case:

*Cheek Cha Chong I believe is finally out my life.
* I believe Bi-Bi and I will remain text buddies with minimal to no conversation when in person
* Gentleman X he's too wishy washy with what he wants from me on a daily basis. I can't deal with the I like you when I see you and then when I'm out of sight I'm out of mind.
* As for Eyes not too sure he's goin anywhere anytime soon.. in my mind I think I am ok with that

-Mcgee

Bag Lady

So just some random thoughts. I've an interesting past few days. There are currently about four or five guys in my life for one reason or another. People come in and out your life for various reasons and amounts of time I know. There have been some from my past that some how come back... I wish I knew there purpose in my life... they can't all be just friends because I know that's not there only motive, they want more. I'm slightly confused. These same people do a dissappearing act then like abra codabra... their back. Is this some sort of sign? A few of the guys I truly like and if the opportunity arises then I would be willing to take a leap of faith and see where things go, but they all seem to be some sort of "situation". I tried starting from a clean slate but they just keep coming back and I have an issue of being able to ignore them in hopes things such as there situation has/will change... What to do.
*****Over the weekend I met someone and spent some time with him... The time I spent with him I kept asking myself if he was Bi-sexual... no lie no joke... This is ridiculous... I shouldn't have to ponder the thought, but I did. I don't think he's a potential, but he might be a good friend...
*****I also saw someone else over the weekend who sent me a text previously which read " I want you"... For one who doesn't call or text me or ask me to go on dates I was wondering where he was goin with this... My response " in what way"... his response "in every way"... I laughed because I did not and still do not think it was genuine. When I did see him that evening he only made comments about my body and having kids and sex, then when I was leaving he had the audacity to tell rather than ask me to spend the night with me.. Oh hell no that wasn't fixin to happen. Needless to say I haven't spoken to him since. I'm sure he's upset since I didn't respond to his text at 3:36am askin if I was still up so we could sleep together... He doesn't call, text, and we've never been on a date but he wants to sleep with me... I think not, an idiot for wishful thinking and even trying...
*****On the other hand I am tryin to walk away from the situation with "Eyes". that's not really going too well. Perhaps I've found my only weaknessand I hate to admit it...I need to disassociate myself with bubble vest coats and anything else that reminds me of him. Who am I really kidding!!!!! It will take much more than that for me to quit him altogether!! Speakin of "Eyes", he just text messaged me...

-Mcgee

If that boy don't love you by now

But I, gotta come down to earth, I don't wanna
But I, gotta let you go, but baby I dont wanna
And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain't meant to be
That's why I tell myself

If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you

Baby, I can't help but fantasize
Wondering what it might be like
You and I sound so right
But I'mma let it go tonight, Ain't nothin'
Coverin' my eyes
Ain't gotta see it more than twice
I get it, I got it
Baby, baby

If he ain't got it right by now
Then scratch him - off
The girl that they used to know - done changed
Now they say a "Miss" befo' they mention my name

The sweetest woman in the world
Can be the meanest woman in the world
If you make her that way, you keep on hurting her
She keeps being quiet
She might be holding something inside
That could really hurt you one day

Im not in love
Its just some kind of thing Im goin thru
Goin thru, goin thru
And its not infatuation
Aint nothin goin on between me and you
Me and you, me and you
But I dream about it every night, baby
Wantin you here with me
Makin love to me

I care about you
I'm here are you
so why don't you care for me
Like I care about you

If it's loving that you want
Then you should make me your girl, your girl
If it's loving that you need
Baby come and share my world, share my world
If it's loving that you want
Then come and take a walk with me, walk with me
Cause, everything that you need, I got it right here baby, baby

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oh no....
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget

I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
-And it’s all because of you
BY- CIARA

Beanz-N-Mcgee

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