So just some random thoughts. I've an interesting past few days. There are currently about four or five guys in my life for one reason or another. People come in and out your life for various reasons and amounts of time I know. There have been some from my past that some how come back... I wish I knew there purpose in my life... they can't all be just friends because I know that's not there only motive, they want more. I'm slightly confused. These same people do a dissappearing act then like abra codabra... their back. Is this some sort of sign? A few of the guys I truly like and if the opportunity arises then I would be willing to take a leap of faith and see where things go, but they all seem to be some sort of "situation". I tried starting from a clean slate but they just keep coming back and I have an issue of being able to ignore them in hopes things such as there situation has/will change... What to do.
*****Over the weekend I met someone and spent some time with him... The time I spent with him I kept asking myself if he was Bi-sexual... no lie no joke... This is ridiculous... I shouldn't have to ponder the thought, but I did. I don't think he's a potential, but he might be a good friend...
*****I also saw someone else over the weekend who sent me a text previously which read " I want you"... For one who doesn't call or text me or ask me to go on dates I was wondering where he was goin with this... My response " in what way"... his response "in every way"... I laughed because I did not and still do not think it was genuine. When I did see him that evening he only made comments about my body and having kids and sex, then when I was leaving he had the audacity to tell rather than ask me to spend the night with me.. Oh hell no that wasn't fixin to happen. Needless to say I haven't spoken to him since. I'm sure he's upset since I didn't respond to his text at 3:36am askin if I was still up so we could sleep together... He doesn't call, text, and we've never been on a date but he wants to sleep with me... I think not, an idiot for wishful thinking and even trying...
*****On the other hand I am tryin to walk away from the situation with "Eyes". that's not really going too well. Perhaps I've found my only weaknessand I hate to admit it...I need to disassociate myself with bubble vest coats and anything else that reminds me of him. Who am I really kidding!!!!! It will take much more than that for me to quit him altogether!! Speakin of "Eyes", he just text messaged me...
-Mcgee
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