3 Parallel Worlds

This is an exert taken from Hill Harpers book, "The Conversation". I just thought I would share

So many woman seem to be mistrustful of men, and so many men seem to be suspicious of woman. It is as if the romantic relationships between men and woman exist in three parallel worlds- The world of what is said, the world of what is meant, and the world of what is done, and rarely are the three in any sort of alignment. For example: What is said: "I love you"; What he meant: "I love you in the moment"; What he did: not call for a few days

It isn't about misleading or hurting anybody, but sometimes dealing with people in those parallel worlds feels almost safe. Neither person has to reveal anything about his or her true self.


-McGee

I CANNOT

Despite it all... I feel like my worst of this escapade is nearing and I do not want it too... I just have this "feeling" I wish would go away so that everything would be ok just how I want it... Lord Please I have been terribly emotional these past 3 days and I think it's because of "that time of the month" or at least I hope so cause my emotions are out of control out of control. I don't wanna catch serious feelings but over the weekend and the few incidents that happened I see it happening... I CANNOT I CANNOT I CANNOT let this happen right now. Its been 6 months and Im hoping I can just put my feelings on hold or turn it off before they advance... I do not want to get hurt I CANNOT I CANNOT I CANNOT let that happen.It scares me. Hell relationships scare me now I think about it... Maybe this isn't what I want after all...

-McGee

Keep the Faith

I am quite afraid to love and be in love. Falling in love with someone who isn't in love with me or where the feelings aren't mutual scares me. I couldn't even tell you the last time I've REALLY actually dated someone... my experiences have all been mishaps and nothing serious... I gotta keep the faith and stay positive. There is someone out there who will completely accept me flaws and all... I just know it

-Mcgee

Lately

Lately Ive had people come out the woodworks:

My old friend from college that I use to "talk" to's roomate asked me to come and hang out with him 2 weeks aho. To bring a few CUTE friends and ordered me to wear a dress... Where is all this coming from I asked and he said he's a changed man since 5 minutes ago. Then he says I want to spend time with you and take you out to dinner... there I am in dead silence and wondering what is really going on. How do you want anything to do with me sexually/intimately when he you know the past between his best friend/old roomate... Does that not bother him in the least bit? Im affended

Eli someone I use to talk to in college who hasn't been married a year and I was present for it text messages me at 12am Tuesday night... The convo starts out with the regular how are you etc. I asked why he is up so late and he says I cannot sleep... so as he is laying next to his wife he decides to text me of all people because he can't sleep... riiiiight. I fell asleep and woke up to 3 text messages from him the last one saying we never got the chance to finish our talk. When is our next trip, and am I busy Friday night... So I responded what are you talking about and Im in Gwinnett for the weekend... How disrespectful to me and his wife and marriage... after 3 years you'd think he would have given up by now but he hasn't. I guess I have to be harsh and let him know that his one shot he had has expired and has been since 2006... He needs to move on because I have :-)Besides he has a wife who loves him to death...

There is somoene from one of my jobs who wants me and he is quite consistant and instead of taking him seriously I blow him off. He always wants to take me out anf last night I wake up to a text saying I want to take you to Hawaii if you want to go... WOW Im flattered but I just dont like him... so sad but hey I know what I want

This is the most amusing part of my love life the other part I won't speak on right now... That is all and until next time

Oh and one more thing my "Baby's Daddy"/Ex boyfriend is joining the Circus... try explaining that to your family. God knew what he was doing with the situation concerning my baby...

-Mcgee

false alarm

Sooooo let's forget about the last post I was completly wrong! I was hurt and confused. I asked my friends for thier advice and 1. Reccommended I bring up the situation to him hypothetically and get his reaction. The other friend suggested I just flat out ask him about the girl. Both opinions were helpful. I just sucked it up and asked him about the situation and about the girl. He broke it down and was like noooo its just his friend and he said it in a joking way. He then confessed that he was scared he was losing me. I tell most men upfront about my run away bride like syndrome. He was more worried that I didn't want him anymore. He had good reason to feel that way I had been soo busy during the week that I wasn't the most responsive. I had a bad attitude because of my tiresome week and I took it out on him, earlier in the day. We talked everything over and came to the conclusion that communication definitely is the glue in most relationships. I also learned that sometimes to be in a relationship you have to let go of your past, you can't generalize all men, they are truely not the same. Every experience with a man is different and if there is a pattern of negativity then you have to check your behavior too. I mean I'm glad I can breathe a sigh of relief. He does love me and he shows and tells me it everyday. I guess I just have to get use to the good treatment.