Letting Go

Through the years Ive had one pleasant relationship and I broke up with him to try something different which turned out to be nothing more than a CB. Since then its been nothing but dating escapades and one crazy relationship. Ive endured a lot of pain being lied too and being played but Ive learned a lot also. As crazy as it sounds even if I knew the reality of the situation in some cases I would stick around in hopes things would change (sound familiar?)... That that person would realize the good person I am and wonderful girlfriend I would make. The truth of the matter is not all situations and relationships are not meant to be. In the process of realizing I have to let it go I sometimes struggle, constantly wondering how that person really feels about me, do they care, questioning what they say or what they do or lack there of, wondering will things change and go back to the way they use to be. So once one realizes the reality of the situation why is that we sometimes have a hard time letting go? It is because of time and energy invested in someone to just let it go is too overwhelming. Perhaps its because you're use to that person being around and you never quite imagined or even wanted to imagine what it would be like without them. People may forget what you said, they may even forget what you did, but they will never forget the way you made them feel. It takes twenty one to twenty eight days to form a habit and roughly twenty one days to break it. During that time I know me personally I'm constantly wondering where they are, who there with, what there doing, did they move on, do they think about me,so on and so forth. I wonder when and if they will they try to contact me. I winder if I'll ever see them again or if one day the two of us will one day be able to be friends. The things I do and places I go and things I hear remind me of them... letting go of course takes time but out of sight out of mind and the feelings that you once felt will slowly fade away. You were fine before they came along and you will be fine after them. Nothing is ever a waste of time and there is always a lesson to be learned...

-McGee