Love Sucks

So.... im starting to feel as though my EX has been re-encarnated into the guy im talkin too... its rather dissturbing. I created a vision board and i was hoping for a relationship or at least dating someone steady. Ive been "talking" "dating" i dunno what you call it for about 6 months and things dont seem to be progressing it's just standing still... Ive spoken to my best friend Corey about it and he told me his opinion and deep down inside I want to be with him because it's been 6 months then the other side of me feels as though I would be settling. Cool person but I don;t feel as if he's into me. I feel like I did when I was with my ex lonely, making an effort, and things dont seem to be reciprocated... We've chatted about how I feel ands he said I was siking myself out but I believe other wise. I know how I am suppose to be treated and this is not it. I can let go but i hate the time, engery, and money Ive invested to come this far ans give up... time and time again Ive gone to God to ask him to make us closer and maybe form a relationship but i don't believe we are suppose to be together as much as I think i wanted us to be. God puts people together and they arent meant top be... I sometimes wish he would allow this to happen... I know my self worth but i still find myself wanting to settle... I know it's about self love and if I loved myself I wouldn't allow myself to settle. Im not dumb maybe slightly weak minded but im seriously working on it but im strong minded. People cone in your life for various reasons, a season, or a life time... I just wonder what the purpose he has in my life. I guess only time will tell. The longer I continue to talk to him and see his patterns the more I feel like he's talkin to others and we have an agreement but I have no idea if he's sticking with his word on it I can only hope and pray that he is. If it doesn't work out then I know God has something better for me in store. On that note I will retire this blog. Until next time *waves bye*

-Mcgee