Uh Oh...who you gonna call?

So...so far everything has been blissful in the wonderful world of Romeo (he) and Juliet (I)... but just as Romeo and Juliet were ill fated star crossed lovers, I'm scared that I may drink the poison first. I'm beginning to have my doubts. Good Ol' "maneater" Jewel is kicking in again. Maybe its the fact that I haven't been able to see him...maybe its the fact that I refuse to believe in fairy tales or that I can't explain the in-explainable which is the emotion of love...sooo i continue to run from it. My greatest fears in this thing called LOVE was that 1. It ends or 2. It begins with the wrong person and you're left to start 10 years of your life over once you realize this....ahhh (*sigh*)

Tonight I went out to dinner with one of my long time, considerably best male friends. He flew in for a business trip and we decided to catch up. He was staying at the Westin so it was only natural that we have dinner at the Sundial. (Uh-Oh) Now if you haven't been to the Sundial, first and foremost you're missing out, but if you have been you know that it is the ultimate couples haven! You wine and dine, while a slowly moving turntable circles you around the a 360 view of the beautiful city of Atlanta. It is a sight to see, especially at night. Now add a jazz quartet playing in the background, mood lights, and a glass of wine...and you get where this is going.




Anyways the setting was one made in heaven, and considering our history. My heart started to send a "What If" signal to my mind. I thought "what if he was my man?" "What if this night ended with more than just a hug good-bye?" "What if He's the one I'm supposed to be with?"...I couldn't look at him for moments at a time because these thoughts kept rushing to me...I couldn't see myself attempting to terminate something that is blossoming for something that had already been planted in the foundation of a "friendship"...So I brought Him (romeo) up so that I could divert my mind. My Bff...was shocked and amazed and wanted to know more about him, the whole "how? Story"...but I sensed he wanted to know more so that he could ease the "why" that caught him off guard...the "why" did you choose him? I would look away only to make a side eye to notice him staring at me. As we left the dinner table he walked remotely close to me, a sign I've been told to look out for, it's the subconscious way to show you really want to be with someone. He's pretty much been the one man to remain constant in my slew of men...and he knows all of my relationship woes and triumphs..I've been that woman..who has also remained constant in his life of hoes and triumphs...but I can't do that to (HIM) I can't allow myself to feel this way...sooo I will try to knock Cupid's arrow back towards my Romeo.

-Beanz