I absolutely hate it when it's that time of the month. Not only are my cramps horrific..emotionally I am a wreck. I would say emotionally I have become very stoic, very guarded. I am particularly an open person when it comes to telling stories about myself or my experiences. I am an avid listener and I often try to analyze problems others may have and return a genuine response, but during this time of the month, I feel everything. I am overly emotional, over sensitive, and anxious. Now granted most people do experience these symptoms, but for me it just seems different. I feel incapable of controlling them, or controlling myself from experiencing it. I've built up such a wall that I don't expect much from anyone..and I feel as though I can not trust anyone and I generally do not. I've always been a caring person but lately I've seen myself in a cycle where I don't care so I don't hurt...and right now dealing with these waves of emotion..is unbearable..its like everything I tried to suppress always comes out...with this lack of emotion how can I truly love?
-beanz
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