I can feel my heart pounding fast within its pace. My mind flutters from thought to thought. Its funny how when we ask God to give something to us and he does, it is then that we don't know what to do with it. The God word says that God has not given us the spirit of fear but the peace of a sound mind. Yet, I feel afraid, I don't want to but I do. I have this great guy before me but I'm scared. All of these what if keep coming into my mind. What if we don't work, what if someone else comes along, what if he hurts me. I've always hated the stories of people being married for over 20 something years only to get a divorce. I know that things are seasonal but I don't want this season to pass and I guess that's what I fear the most. Nothing has ever really lasted in my life from friends to family. I know change is inevitable but sometimes I just want to have the faith that something so idealistic as love will last. He is coming to visit in march, his ticket already purchased which makes it all so real. I guess just have to wait and see what this is and what it will turn out to be.
Beanz
No comments:
Post a Comment