Soooo... I go out with my friend last night with the intention of going out to mix and mingle with other singles. The last spot we went to some one immediately tries to talk to her and Im left alone... Am I really unapproachable? Am I ugly? Do I look too young? I feel like I need to go out with someone who isn't all that cute because all my friends are too beautiful and pretty and then there is me... so much for actually feeling confident in myself last night also... to make things worse I had befriended a few guys who use to attend Clayton and the one guy who I was into says that he wants to talk to the friend I was with... she was across the way talkin with another guy... makes me feel really just great. I gave him her number and I basically left with no numbers and feelin like crap. Although She did end up giving my number to this guy who is... in the least just not my type. uuuggghhhh really? Am I being punished for something?? I really wish I was prettier and maybe looked more approachable... is that it???
I really miss my friend DT...and Lyfe...and Jason... I need to get myself some words of wisdom and think more positively before I sink into a state of sadness. I miss DT very much this is the longest Ive gone without seeing him. I think Ive almost got the "like" out of my system sorta and now it's me trying to get it in my head that we'll never be anything more than friends... *sigh*
I am absolutely in love with Lyfe's music!! It puts me at ease and I can relate to it oooooh I love it. I did have the pleasure close to almost a year ago of having lunch with him and then he came to my apartment. He's a wonderful person. I wish I could even say that we're friends but I guess we're not that either... so sad. Ive admired him for years and finally getting a chance to spend time with the guy who's music I fell in love with is an undescribale feeling... Im just sad that it ended there :-( I don't get replies to text messages, tweets, or returned phone calls
anymore...
Im just babbling (I appologize) so I am goin to retire and get back to what I was doing *peace*
-McGee
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