Thank You God

First and foremost I want to start out by saying that God is good!! I am truly blessed I really am... My friend Sparkle once told me that when you pray to God that you must be Specific. I have crushed on a few guys and have been "blessed" to have them in my life... most of them just flings which maybe lasted give or take a couple of weeks or for those sexual relationships which have lasted a couple of months up to a year, but truly that is not exactly what I wanted. Yes I did get what I wanted which was the chance to "get to know them" and befriend them but it stops there. I guess I wasn't specific enough. I don't want any more sexual relationships... even though they don't ever start out that way but some how end up that way. Not too sure how that really happened. Ive now written God a list of qualities I want my next Man to possess when the time is right... it's long really long but it's at least everything that I am... *sigh*

On another note Ive come to the realization that maybe being in a relationship or even marriage really isn't what it's cracked up to be. Those fantasies of having a wonderful boyfriend who's romantic and close to everything Ive wanted in a guy, a movie perfext proposal, an extravagent wedding, and a fairy tail ending with a wonderful man who will stay faithful and true... yea, hell no. Those thoughts are gone. I cannot take men seriously anymore, I just can't because they are no longer serious. I think it's time to just focus on myself and building a stronger relationship with God and maintain my friendships that I already have now. There is just one person who is in my system but almost on his way out I pray *sigh*

-McGee