so with the holiday season approaching i'm beginning to feel really anti love...yeah im in a supposed realtionship..but what good is it when your guard is constantly up..i don't want to give in because the outcome would surely be heartache...i don't know what to believe anymore when it comes to love//haha where is my mr.right..i feel as though im settling for mr. right now..or maybe im just not giving it a chance to grow..he's sooo into me...does everything..well almost everything i've ever complained that a guy does not do but *sigh* my heart is still drifting in limbo...waiting for the spark...i always say im too busy for a relationship..or just not ready but i can't keep running from love forever? right?
i think i've been brainwashed by the romance movies..to think that love includes this a-ha! moment followed but "warm and fuzzy feelings" and deep and passionate kiss..then a night of passion..waking up thankful that such a person exists! but does he..where can i find him? I want that..but it seems like when i think i find that..surely reality smacks my shortlied fantasy in the face...and all of his shortcomings are revealed.
I spoke to one guy who told me the list of the type of woman he wanted...and then he told me how he really didn't expect to find her. he told me he believes in the 80/20 rule...that your lover will only match up with 80% of what you desire and the lacking latter is something you just have to deal with...hmm sounds reasonable..well then i listen to joyce little on the radio to hear one of her psychologists declare that a good man needs a good woman...he went on to to further explain that..that most good men can be made..there's a good man hiding in most men and it takes the right woman to get it out of him...a woman that doesn't settle for just average behavior, has her own mind, and is encouraging...ahh but i digress..i have work to do..i'll get back to this and love later
Beanz
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