So it turns out "the looker", recently made a statement about how he is ready to find the one settle down and get married! Now I am totally offended by this only because like I said before I seem to be that problem child. Maybe I'm looking at it all wrong, but damn it, I want things to go my way. So here's the background. "the looker" was infatuated with me for some time. I met him on the job and we kept in touch, moreso he than me. A whole year went by with me not really caring tooo much for his texts, calls or anything, i think because I was soooo wrapped up in some other guy. (me and my Crushes)And then one day I decided to answer...I mean the first couple weeks were amazing we had great conversation, many things in common, and he was hot!! Then I feel like things took a turn for the worst..I started to like him..Lord help me..this is the point when I turn into a douche...hmm maybe that's what drives men away...I realized that when I don't care I have the natural tendency to be myself..but when I start to like them..I turn into this shy, passive, submissive, babbling fool...and they go..hmmmm this chic is wack..
One of my male friends told me that Men are naturally attracted to women who have the ability to make them better or make them feel better..like an extra backbone or something...that of course requires a strong woman...U know how in movies men fall in love with the woman that has subtle features of remembrance..like they'll say..I never met a woman with such passion, or it was her sensitivity I fell in love with and other bull shit like that...bull shit I wish I could be remembered for by the men I actually like...but let me get back to my point...so anyways I naturally assumed that the months of this conversation with the Looker would lead somewhere but it didn't..instead I realized he just wanted to chitty chitty bang bang..come on after three months that's all you want from me? Our conversations lessened and then I started to wonder why he even bothered to call..we didn't have shit to talk about..and then that stuff we had in common seemed to go out the door..then he kept trying to hit me with dumb shit..like what if i had girls on the side..or what if i had sex with someone last week..would you be mad..wtf? This is how you talk to a girl your supposedly interested in?
But anyways I tried to cut him off I told him it was over we couldn't talk anymore..at first he acted like he didn't care..and I felt good to cut him off..then he came back...trying figure out why..and basically I told him if he didn't want to be with me then there wasn't reason for us to talk..he told me I wasn't patient enough to go at his pace..so I was like sooo your pace was fast enough to be sexual (sidenote: no I didn't sleep with him) but not to go into a relationship...sooo anyways now he's talking about finding the one..and blah blah..So right now I'm upset..sooo wtf was I? I certainly don't carry myself like a cut buddy...and my douche like behavior can be overcame if a man really wants me and can bring me back to light and make me feel comfortable... I guess the hunt continues..Fu*k YOU Looker.. I'm a damn good woman..and F*ck you for not being able to see it! beanz
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